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There is a reason I’m wearing red lipstick despite the fact that it’s the morning and I’m about to go to uni and commence a process of explaining to those few souls brave enough to question me as to why. May 26th everyone is wearing red lipstick to raise awareness for Multiple Sclerosis.

            I was first diagnosed when I was 18, and I’m currently on a treatment not totally unlike a mild chemotherapy in which I have to inject my thigh muscle with a liquid that makes me ridiculously sick for 2 or so days, once a week.

I have always taken the stance of survivor over victim, choosing to use this experience as a tool of self-definition and not one that jails me. Most of the time, I know the people around me forget that I have it because I’m so at peace with the fact that I would not be the person I am now if I hadn’t been made stronger due to it.  But the recent treatment I’ve started has been a bit…well… hard to deal with. The first few times you do, you can play along , you psyche yourself up, mentally prepare for those painful injections. But with consistency and over time.. let’s just say my will is definitely being tested.

If anything I have been blessed with, It’s The Most Beautiful People in the World around me. I know this sounds a bit inauthentic and cheesy thanks to the abundance of New Age/ Self Help books out there but, despite all the pain I’ve had to go through (and will keep going through), my simple life is pretty much already Heaven for me.




A big thanks to everyone I love dearly including my giant Italian family, Paul and all my friends (you know who you are), and everyone who reads this blog and shares their thoughts, you honestly have no idea how much this means to me!


:)

M



9 comments:

  1. Wow! I am a neuroscience nurse and look after a lot of patients with MS, this post made me smile, pause and think. I've heard so many happy / sad stories, been there when a person is diagnosed. I've got regulars that come in for treatment and we always have a good catch up. It's a scary, interesting, complex, debilitating disease it sounds and looks like you're taking it and owning it though, instead of it owning you - Even though I don't know you I'm proud of you. You're an inspiration.

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I really dig your positive outlook, and your strength.

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  3. You look gorgeous :)
    And I totally get what you mean about being grateful for the people around you :)
    I feel the same!!!

    :) www.clashingtime.blogspot.com <3

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  4. i wish i'd known about this--and found your blog--before today. i also thank you for sharing because i'm learning what it's like to not only be tested, but to be tested constantly. it's draining. thanks for sharing your source of strength. :)

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  5. There's nothing I appreciate more than seeing/hearing someone go through something that helps them to create a deeper definition for having a joy for life and being stronger all the more for it. You're amazing, and I find people who suffer from something they have no control over and who make the best of any situation, amazing. Soooo, nothing short of amazing-ness here. You're gorgeous, and you're DEALING with a major something. More than I can say for some people.

    Enough said, I agree with Pennerad. Keep doing what you're doing and know that the trials you go through with the needle is only there to help, though it can be draining. I know what that's like. Insulin shots.

    Next time around on May 26th I shall be sure to wear red lipstick!

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  6. Thank you for posting this. You are not alone in your struggle, as I too have been given a possible diagnosis of MS. You have inspired me and let me know that through it all, come what may, there are others out there who live through it and still thrive. Thank you so much for that.

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  7. Thanks for sharing your strength, chica. :) I'm currently laid flat from my body being in revolt against all the Lyme disease treatment, and it's good to hear someone else's triumphs over a hard situation. I'm reading a book called "Three Cups of Tea," and the first chapter quotes a Persian proverb: "When it is dark enough, you can see the stars." Not to say your life or mine are dark, not at all, but to say that facing hard times at a young age really do help you see what's wonderful and beautiful about life more clearly, if you have the right attitude. :)

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  8. Amazing, its nice when people look at the positives in the negatives. Love your blog and I'm following now sugar x

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